From the monthly archives: September 2010

Exactly alike.

On September 29, 2010 By

A man came to the meeting drunk, interrupted the speakers, stood up and took his shirt off, staggered loudly back and forth for coffee, demanded to talk, and eventually called the group’s secretary an unquotable name and walked out. I was glad he was there—once again I saw what I had been like. But I [...]

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Love without strings.

On September 29, 2010 By

Sponsorship held two surprises for me. First, that my sponsees cared about me. What I had thought was gratitude was more like love. They wanted me to be happy, to grow and remain sober. Knowing how they felt kept me from drinking more than once. Second, I discovered that I was able to love someone [...]

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Our children.

On September 26, 2010 By

While on the road to recovery I received a gift that could not be purchased. It was a card from my son in college, saying, “Dad, you can’t imagine how glad I am that everything is okay. Happy Birthday, I love you.” My son had told me that he loved me before. It had been [...]

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First things first.

On September 26, 2010 By

Before coming to AA, I always had excuses for taking a drink: “She said . . . ,” “He said . . . ,” “I got fired yesterday,” “I got a great job today.” No area of my life could be good if I drank again. In sobriety my life gets better each day. I [...]

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The last Promise.

On September 24, 2010 By

The last Promise in the Big Book came true for me on the very first day of sobriety. God kept me sober that day, and on every other day I allowed Him to operate in my life. He gives me the strength, courage and guidance to meet my responsibilities in life so that I am [...]

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A “limitless lode”.

On September 24, 2010 By

When I talk with a newcomer to AA, my past looks me straight in the face. I see the pain in those hopeful eyes, I extend my hand, and then the miracle happens: become healed. My problems vanish as I reach out to this trembling soul.

Reprinted with permission of AA World Service, Inc.

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Vigilance.

On September 24, 2010 By

Today I am an alcoholic. Tomorrow will be no different. My alcoholism lives within me now and forever. I must never forget what I am. Alcohol will surely kill me if I fail to recognize and acknowledge my disease on a daily basis. I am not playing a game in which a loss is a [...]

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I was an exception.

On September 24, 2010 By

During my drinking life I was convinced I was an exception. I thought I was beyond petty requirements and had the right to be excused. I never realized that the dark counterbalance of my attitude was the constant feeling that I did not “belong.” At first, in AA, I identified with others only as an [...]

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Higher Power as guide.

On September 20, 2010 By

Having a right relationship with God seemed to be an impossible order. My chaotic past had left me filled with guilt and remorse and I wondered how this “God business” could work. AA. told me that I must turn my will and my life over to the care of God, as I understand Him. With [...]

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Acceptance.

On September 20, 2010 By

Freedom came to me only with my acceptance that I could turn my will and my life over to the care of my Higher Power, whom I call God. Serenity seeped into the chaos of my life when I accepted that what I was going through was life, and that God would help me through [...]

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